Christmas is the time...

I miss them so much...

I am so blessed indeed...

Carl Rhyss and Christof Aaron

Yeah right! I'm a proud Mom of two boys!

Why I named my son Christof Aaron

I named him such because his name describes us.

Christof means bearer of Christ...and of course, Rhyss already is Carl. Christof...Christine.
Aaron...yes, he was Moses' right hand. His name also means mountain of strength.

Indeed, God has blessed me so much. I have been through a lot throughout my pregnancy and I have seen God's hand move and I have experienced Him working in my life.

Christof Aaron came at a time when I was experiencing so much loss and so much pain with the death of my Mom and Lola Febe. He came at a time when there was so much turmoil in my marriage, not knowing what to do or who to turn to.

And God showed me clearly just how much grace and love He has for me.

Yes, Kuya Romy and Ate Leila was so right when they said my baby is more than a conqueror. Looking back now, I wouldn't have survived and my baby wouldn't be this healthy if it were not for the strength that God has given.

Indeed, I am so blessed to have children like Rhyss and Aaron.

Kaya sila tinawag na mag-ama

Oh Rhyss!!!

Rhyss, will you please come here.
Why Mama?
I miss you, I want to embrace and kiss you.
Why do you miss me, we're in the same country naman e.

***

Ma, I miss Rianne.
Why do you miss her, you're in the same country right?
(then pretended not to hear anything)

***

Mama, I'm going to miss you if you go to work and I go to school.
Why anak, di ba we live in the same country naman?
Nooooo! What I mean was we live in the same city, in the same house!!!

***

Rhyss while doing exercises in division...

Oh dear! This is so hard...

Ma, I want to eat... (asked for a serving of igado and rice and finished a plateful though he's done with dinner already)...

(After eating...) Ohhhhh....

Then I observed...a picture of Rianne was displayed in front of the DVD player, looks at it, then answer one problem, looks at the tv, then looks at Rianne's picture again.

Oh Rhyss!!!

Lord, I have been through so much. I am sorry if I keep on forgetting how faithful you are to have carried me through all the seasons in my life.

Thank you God for reminding me that You have a great plan for me, and that You desire the best for me. Thank you for calling me the apple of your eye. Thank you for loving me so much despite my iniquities and imperfections.

Yes God, I won't allow myself to be affected by an anthill. I know that your grace is more than sufficient for me.

Thank you for helping me climb mountains and for helping me reach the apex of every mountain unscathed.

Indeed Lord, you are faithful. Thank you for your promise that you're going to fight for me and stand up for me.

Yes God, I will be still and know that You are an awesome God.

To be a mother of two boys...

Lapit ng lumabas si Peanuts, wala pang pangalan.
Rhyss is having "papansin" episodes.
I'm getting jittery, I'm always sick.
Nakakakaba pala ang maging nanay ng dalawa.
But I'm excited...

Less talk, less mistakes

Ang konti na nga lang ng sinabi ko namisquoute pa. Pareho ba to?

"Our God is a just God"

sa

"Thank God justice has been served"

For me, hindi pareho.

God is the God of Justice

Thank you God! He is guilty...I know you are faithful and You will not leave us in the midst of the battle. You are not done yet...but I am confident that You will never leave us. I will be still and know that You are God. May you be glorified, Lord.

God is not done with me yet. But I am assured that He will stay with me until the race is finished...because my God is faithful.

Happy Birthday Rianne!

Today is my one and only sister's birthday...
my only family left as Rhyss said last Monday.
At 28, she has gone through a lot...
She turned 18 without a blastful celebration,
but she never complained about it. Guess where and how she spent it!

Now at 28, she has matured sooo much;
Ten years after, her strength, peace and joy is unequalled.
Grace, that's what it is.
Faith, that's what keeps her going.
Love, that's what moves her.

Rianne, my ading that I am so proud of...
Next to God, my biggest source of strength.
The very best friend I ever had.

Happy Birthday Homer!

"Homer, dahan-dahan lang, malapit na ang birthday natin!"

Another baby boy!

Yes, our blessing will be coming in December. Another baby boy (though I know, almost everybody is expecting a baby girl).

A blessing is a blessing is a blessing!

I miss you Ma

Yesterday, Pastor Lino and I had the chance to talk...

"Talaga nga love ti taga-Bauang ni Mamam anya? Adda ti nagdakkel nga streamer na nga nakakabil jay market - Remembering Felicidad Picar, Municipal Treasurer, Bauang (something like that)."

Oh! I knew about it and I don't know if I want to go see it.

But I really feel honored that my Mom is given that kind of importance. And as a daughter, I feel so blessed that Mama left a good legacy...an inheritance worth more than riches.

I love you Ma.

Thank you

It has been a year since we lost our Mom on August 6, 2007.

I miss her so much. Rhyss does too, not forgetting to tell me everyday. And a lot of people does.

God showed himself faithful and He has blessed us with people who really let us feel that God is indeed God.

I felt elated with the ceremony that Bauang did in remembrance for my Mom. I know Mama is likewise honored with the program they have prepared. A marker was placed in front of the house where we used to live in Santiago, Bauang, La Union.

Yes, the justice that we are praying for is not yet served. But I know, in God's time, He will give the justice that Mama truly deserves.

Thank you for not only sharing in our grief, but letting us feel that we are loved and that we are not alone. May God bless you all a hundredfold.

I miss you so much Ma

Life is like a bunch of guapples...

The gunman's alibi is to buy guapples in Urayong for his wife to sell (His wife is selling "tinudok" anyway. Product diversity ba ang tawag dun?). Then, there was no guapple for sale at around 7-7:30am on August 6, 2007 so he went to Bagbag. He is from Agoo but it was his first time to visit Urayong. On his way to Bagbag, going to the "riles", Police, all of a sudden, came pursuing him, so he ran and ran and ran and ran until they came to the "kaarumasan" where a gun was neatly placed on the sand.

This person who knelt down before me and my sister on August 7, 2008, the same person who said "pakawanen dak, saan ko ingagara", "pamilyak laeng ti panpanunutek", now claims he saw only Rianne for the first time when she testified in court. A a, ket wen a garud.

Sabagay, he is in no better position than I am. He is also living in fear I believe. Yes, I forgive him already. Whatever the result of the case may be, I know that whoever are behind my Mama's killing will not escape justice.

There is a God who never sleeps, a God who knows all truth...

I choose to be still and know that my God is God. I will wait on HIM.

August 6, 2007

I miss you so much mama.

Mornings at Burnham Park

You want me to take your pictures? Doughnuts for sale!
Dance with Mr. Coliwan...
...and dance some more
Hey mother, take my picture y lang!